I never did a musical day post before… but if I had to choose one to illustrate this week it would have to be this one.

I’ve had a forced couple of days off and so I had a lot of time to think… Wanting to or not.

When you are the one that can’t breathe to a point where you actually lose conscience after having a family member that actually died because of an asthma attack you can’t stop to think how fragile life actually is…

The danger of losing Conscience during an attack id that you actually lose the reflex of breathing in…

Death from asthma is a relatively uncommon event, and most asthma deaths are preventable. It is very rare for a person who is receiving proper treatment to die of asthma, however, even when it is not life threatening, it can be debilitating and frightening and If not properly controlled can interfere with school and work, as well as daily activities.

It was not the first time it happens… and I am sure it won’t be the last one either… but as  Yochannah messaged me yesterday… you will never value the air you breathe until you don’t have it.

I had 100mil things going through my head… Most of no importance… others stayed stuck there… Between them, was “how would I be remembered when I’m gone”… I know it sounds crazy… and maybe even as over reaction from my part… but that got stuck in my mind.

I’ve been going through a bit of a rough patch for the past few months… In a way I am surprised my body didn’t give up earlier… I am lucky I’ve had some very special people to lean on to… that have been in more ways than one gone through some of it with me.

I’ve been rescued by 2 angels this week and I am not going to tell names, but if you are reading that you know I am talking about you. You have my gratitude and my unconditional love! Thank you for being there!

For the past few years I’ve adopted an “I don’t give a damn about what other people think of me” atitude… That’s not me… Well, not completely… I still think that my actions are my actions and every decision I take is mine to live with… But I do care if I’ve made any difference in people’s life or not…

I don’t want to go and not leave my mark in this planet. and I want this mark to be positive.

Things are about to change… And things are about to change for good.

To Be Continued…