We’re having a baby…
Yeah… I know this is old news now… But I feel like I am definitely ready to talk about it now…
It feels weird that I took that long to ge to it… Specially as this is one of ther things me and Hales craved the most since we found out… blogging about it… I actually dreamed a couple of times that I did it… yeah… I’m weird like that…
Then why haven’t I done it so far? The answer is… I don’t know…
I am not stranger to being a dad… I’ve done it twice as you know… full time at some point… it just feels so much different this time…
Don’t take me wrong… I feel just as happy… elated in fact that I am about to be a daddy again… It puts a huge smile in my face every time I see Hales belly… every time she tells me about the baby somersaults… every time she tells me some new sensation or worry or one of the little joyful things that happen… I nearly cried of happiness when I saw Jelly Tot’s scan… and it still brings me a huge smile to my face every time I look at the scan’s print out…
It makes me hopeful every time someone tells me they think JT will be girl because of the Shape of her belly or anything like that…
Everyone always talks about how important and how incredible it is for the mum to be to be pregnant… and how it feels… and the bond mum and baby have… I can’t help to feel a bit left out…
God knows how much I want to have a relationship with JT from now on already… And being in a different address to Hales hasn’t helped at all… I would love to lay down at night with my ears on her belly and listen to the baby moving… to talk to the bump… I would like noting more than to sleep hugging the bump… And to be able to see how she develops and hold Hales tight at the end of the day and just… stay like that for a little while…
I am now living literally just around the corner… that made it so much easier… I get to worry so much less about being so far away like I was in Kent (almost a 2 hour drive)… I get to see them much more often… Yeah I do miss spending nights together… But being able to see her more often kinda makes up for it…
That in itself is confusing to me sometimes… I’ve been married throughout the pregnancy of my 2 first kids, and my role as a dad to be was so much more active… or at least it felt like it was… On TB’s pregnancy I was in every Dr’s appt… in part because most of the pregnancy was in Brazil and my Ex didn’t speak enough Portuguese to communicate with the doctors when my aunt wasn’t involved… I was in most of Lil’ One’s appt and well… there every step of the way…
Yeah… I am being active during JT’s pregnancy so far helping with everything I can… but it feels weird not “being there”… It is different n every single aspect…
Then again… this is just week 17… I can’t even feel JT kicking from the outside yet… The situation is brand new and I have only just moved closer so yeah… logic dictates that I will be around more often…
Yes I will be giving mummy the space she needs as an independent stubborn young woman… 
And yes… I will keep on learning how to enjoy my own space… How to love my individuality… and discover who da heck I am again… I am getting there…
New relationship… new mummy… new baby… new rules… And Now that I am ready to talk about it… new blog posts about it will come too…
I’m so glad you are writing about it. I’m also happy that you’re closer now. I think that’ll help you a lot. I can’t wait to read more about it!
“Stopping by from Friday Favourites at Diary of a First Child”
I am glad to be writing about it too…
it feels liberating… to tell the truth U’d love to be writing from day one… but couldn’t have done it for obvious reasons… Being closer is making such a difference to me… you have no idea… as I said… I miss night time together and cuddles in bed like it was when I lived further away and all that…but being there more often and seeing the development in a daily basis so makes up for it… 
That and driving for 1 hour on Fridays instead of 5 hours! SCORE!!!! 