Last week Hales got one of those heartbeat monitors you can have at home to try and listen to the baby in the uterus.

Yeah… I know I’d heard the baby’s heart before when we went for the last scan… but I just couldn’t stop smiling at JT’s little noises when we did hear them together last week…

I say little noises because it took me ages to actually hear the heartbeat as JT kept moving and kicking… yeah… baby will be just as stubborn as mummy when she doesn’t want something… lol… But in the end after paying much attention and loads of  kicking and turning around I managed to hear the faint but strong little heart in the background.

I spent the whole night and the next day with a stupid smile on my face…

We are still pretty much convinced JT will be a girl… not just because of the whole round belly myth thing… but Hales says it feels completely  different than it was when she had J… And Jelly Tot is way lazier than him… and just as stubborn as mummy…

We’re not finding out the baby’s gender till JT is here… We were talking about that last night again… yeah… it is so much practical and all… but it kinda takes away element of surprise… and as we’re having a C-section she really wants something to look forward to… and yeah… so will I… expect tears… and maybe a shaky pictures…

Second trimester is not going exactly how I was hopping it would go… Some things still confuse me… and mummy’s moods still frustrate me at times… But tiny little things make up for it as usual… I knew it was never going to be easy… and no matter how things hurt sometimes, love and well… hope that things will get better with time, caring and a HUGE dosis of patience… (Thanks Sara) go a long way…

I can’t wait to be able to feel the little kicks through Hales belly… I actually dreamed about that last night and I really didn’t want to wake up from that dream… But real life tends to get in the way…

TB keeps asking me if he can talk to the bump when he sees Hales on Friday for out “sleepover”…  He is being careful about the subject… bit I can see he is just as curious as he was on Lil One’s pregnancy. Although I can see he is curious in a different way… it is, after all, a completely different situation. With Lil One he was there every day of the run… And of course it was the same mum as his… The fact is that I am not sure how to deal with him… Specially as I don’t know what goes on on his mind… He is too much like me and won’t share openly unless he absolutely has to…

When he asked me to make him a blog I saw an opportunity to gase into what’s in his mind… but there are all the dangers that involve in him having a blog… today Aly gave me an idea that might work… Having him Guest Posting at urbanvox.net … That idea makes me happy… he already Vlogs with me a lot… so it won’t be too different will it?

I also seem to have rediscovered faith and that is something that is growing on me just like the little life that is growing in mummy’s belly… I still don’t know where it will take me… but I am more than happy to go where it goes.

We’re half way there… Time is flying and I can’t wait to meet our littlest one face to face… We’re half way there…

And I can’t stop smiling…