I was always a master at adapting myself to new situations.
I had to learn from quite early… My family never created roots anywhere and I remember years where we’ve lived in 3 different cities within 12 months.
I have the capacity to analysing situations and taking decisions in minutes, and adapting myself to these newly created situations just as easy. That has helped me stay alive and sane for my whole life. It helped me when I was the career oriented man I used to be. It helped me when I decided not to be that man anymore and take off to start a new life far away in a country where I knew no one and was far from everything I knew… A fresh slate…
I can deal with decisions pretty well when I have options A and B (and C and so on) to go for… even if option B is back to the start line…
However…
I struggle most times when I have no options at all… I always try to know what’s going on around me because I tend to freak out when I have no idea what’s going on… I am feeling like that at this precise moment… I don’t know where I am, or where I want to get… I have options but taking decisions on them depends on things that haven’t happened yet… I have options but I lack purpose….I have long term goals, but no short term means…
I woke up this morning and I had nothing planned… nothing I knew I could achieve… I still have no idea… I looked for options and all the ones that appealed to me were taken away…
It is sunny and beautiful out there… But does it make any difference if all you have is your own confused and out of purpose presence with you?
My room is a mess… My head too… So is my life…
I know I can’t sort all of it at once. But I can take one step at the time…
I can start with my room… Makes easier to see options to sort my head… and it’s the only way I’ll be able to sort my life…
What do YOU need?
