28 Apr

Weeks 23 & 24: Choices we Make

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Dear Jelly Tot

This has to be the hardest letter I’ve written you so far mainly because I get to talk to you about something I have been struggling with myself… A LOT

Every choice we make comes with a consequence… I should know… Daddy took a few very bad choices over the past few days and is now suffering the consequences immensely… I hope you learn quickest than I did that all the choices we make will affect not only ourselves but the ones immediately around us.

The good news is that every choice you take will lead to another one further along and we always get to choose how you will react to what’s happening next. So don’t worry if you end up making bad choices… We all do along the way, and believe me, the consequences of some of them will hurt like crazy but then again, at the end You can either choose to mop over it and feel sorry for yourself or learn the lesson with your mistake and do something about it. You have something called free will… It is the most important t gift you will EVER possess… MAKE USE OF IT the best way you can!

Me and mummy will always be here to help you take the best choices as much as we can… but in the end it is all up to you… and no matter how you choose to live your life, I need you to know one thing: I LOVE YOU MY SON! I always will, and there is nothing anyone can do about it.

Now, let me know about a choice I know you’ve been taking a lot… I know it is fun to kick and sit on mummy’s blather all the time… I find it amusing myself… that is when she is not giving me “the look” for giggling about it… but you do know what the consequence of if wil be right? (that is… apart from mummy having to pee a lot)… she will never ever ever let that one pass and will always use it against ya… in special when you bring your girlfriends home… Think it might be an idea to change your favourite spot??? Just saying…

12 Apr

Weeks 21 & 22: Learning

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Dar Jelly Tot,

It has been 2 weeks since I last wrote you a letter. 2 VERY complicated weeks… but I guess you might have felt that through mummy… Too much happening, all at once… But as with everything that happens we learn as we live… That is THE ONE thing you need to make sure you understand… We never stop learning… And there is plenty of things you will need to learn the moment you come out.

The first thing you will learn, and probably the most traumatic , is that you need to breathe. It will hurt at first, but after the shock it is quite pleasant. Keep that in mind because it’s one of the things you will need to remember when you grow up… sometimes you need to stop… close your eyes… and take a deep breath.

This week we have also learned that you are not going to be daddy’s little princess but a little man just like your brothers. Mummy and I keep joking that we’re now only one short for a football team… Ah… and talking about football… you need to learn from now that the team you need to support if you don’t want to be in trouble with your mum is Liverpool FC… Believe me… you don’t wanna be on mummy’s bad side… I’ve had some of that this week, and it wasn’t fun… AT ALL!

Week 20: Half Way There

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Dear Jelly Tot,

We’re now half way there… The past week has been quite hard on daddy… I didn’t get to hear your heartbeat or talk to you at all… Time just ran by and mummy has been stressed with an essay and other life related things… including daddy being a bit of a pain in the butt (yeah… get used to it…)… But today you’ve put a huge smile on daddy’s face… And a few tears in my eyes as well. They were tars of joy… it made me so very happy to see you moving… and thanks to for waving like I asked you last week…

You are still being as lazy as can be as neither mummy nor I can feel your kicks on the outside yet (although apparently you like The Jersey Boys… cool ) how about you give some of those kicks outwards so daddy can feel them too?

You really take after your mummy don’t you? As in being as stubborn as posible and being in the wrong positions at the wrong time… This time me ultra sound lady didn’t make your mum bounce all over the place, but she asked us to go for a walk… and you still wouldn’t do as you are told when we were back… I don’t mind really… it means we get to go see you again next week (and this time I’ll male sure I have the money for the your pictures on me… )… But PLEASE could you make sure you are in the right position next time? We want a decent picture of you.

Your brothers are convinced (like everyone else) that you are a girl now… and are really expecting you to be one… so for their benefit we might have to find out you gender next week… I still don’t know it I like the idea of ruining the surprise or if I get excited to find out if you gonna be our littlest boy or daddy’s little princess…

But you know what? Everyone out here will love you just as much!

Still 3 months and a half for you to arrive… I can’t wait to see your little face…

Love you!

23 Mar

Week 19 – 3 Words, 8 Letters, 1 Meaning

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Dear Jelly Tot,

There are just so many things I woud like to tell you… Mummy insists that you can’t hear me when I talk to her belly trying to reach you… but I am stubborn… And I really hope I am right… If nothing for the sake of you remembering my voice when you are out of there.

I wish I could spend more time just listening to your little noises whilst leaning my my head on mummy’s lap and telling you of both of both things important and unimportant… Unfortunately life gets on the way and the time we spend together is never enough… Life is complicated out here… More so than it should sometimes… But rest assured that daddy will be here for you whenever you need me when you’re out.

We are all here waiting for your arrival, but take your time… We’ll be here when you’re ready to come out… Would you give me a favour and give mummy a few extra kicks while you’re in there? She keeps telling me you’re lazy on the kicking department… I say you gotta step up a bit because I wanna few a feel of those little kicks too… Please…

Your brothers are all very excited about you coming out too… Well… all but Lil’ One as I’m not really sure he realized what’s going on yet… but T and J are giving us some great ideas about what your name should be, even though we still don’t know if you are going to be a boy or girl. Ah… they have actually accepted the possibility of you being a girl too so don’t worry… no matter what I think you will be allowed in their “tent” games.

Even the cats seem to love you already… it is funny t see how they perch up on top of mummy’s belly whenever she is laying down near them. II’d post a picture of it… but I think mummy wouldn’t be to impressed of my publishing a photo of her sleeping… )

I can’t wait to to be able to hold you tight… and kiss you and be able to feel you too… to hear your little noises out live… to see hold your little hands on mine… to see your little face… Not looking forward to smelly nappies… but that is part of it… so… well… I’ll let mummy deal with most of them should we?? (think she’ll will be so kind? )

I’m wondering if you are still going to be as shy as you are now when you’re out… I hope not as both me and mummy will probably have cameras pointed at you from minute one… Ah… your big brother is into photography too and I’ve just given him his 1st real camera… so yeah… there’s probably gonna be him too… (fingers crossed)

I hope I can be the dad you deserve me to be… I will put my everything into it, you can be sure of that…

Can’t wait to see you again next week… Could you please wave to daddy when the doctor has got you on the scanner ?

There’s so much I could say… so much I want to say… but all of it could be dwarfed by 3 simple words….8 letters… 1 meaning…

I LOVE YOU… I did from day one… And I always will til the day I am not waking in this earth anymore (and even then).

Hang on in there little tomato!

Love

Daddy

15 Mar

Week 18 – Heartbeats and Questions

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Last week Hales got one of those heartbeat monitors you can have at home to try and listen to the baby in the uterus.

Yeah… I know I’d heard the baby’s heart before when we went for the last scan… but I just couldn’t stop smiling at JT’s little noises when we did hear them together last week…

I say little noises because it took me ages to actually hear the heartbeat as JT kept moving and kicking… yeah… baby will be just as stubborn as mummy when she doesn’t want something… lol… But in the end after paying much attention and loads of kicking and turning around I managed to hear the faint but strong little heart in the background.

I spent the whole night and the next day with a stupid smile on my face…

We are still pretty much convinced JT will be a girl… not just because of the whole round belly myth thing… but Hales says it feels completely different than it was when she had J… And Jelly Tot is way lazier than him… and just as stubborn as mummy…

We’re not finding out the baby’s gender till JT is here… We were talking about that last night again… yeah… it is so much practical and all… but it kinda takes away element of surprise… and as we’re having a C-section she really wants something to look forward to… and yeah… so will I… expect tears… and maybe a shaky pictures…

Second trimester is not going exactly how I was hopping it would go… Some things still confuse me… and mummy’s moods still frustrate me at times… But tiny little things make up for it as usual… I knew it was never going to be easy… and no matter how things hurt sometimes, love and well… hope that things will get better with time, caring and a HUGE dosis of patience… (Thanks Sara) go a long way…

I can’t wait to be able to feel the little kicks through Hales belly… I actually dreamed about that last night and I really didn’t want to wake up from that dream… But real life tends to get in the way…

TB keeps asking me if he can talk to the bump when he sees Hales on Friday for out “sleepover”… He is being careful about the subject… bit I can see he is just as curious as he was on Lil One’s pregnancy. Although I can see he is curious in a different way… it is, after all, a completely different situation. With Lil One he was there every day of the run… And of course it was the same mum as his… The fact is that I am not sure how to deal with him… Specially as I don’t know what goes on on his mind… He is too much like me and won’t share openly unless he absolutely has to…

When he asked me to make him a blog I saw an opportunity to gase into what’s in his mind… but there are all the dangers that involve in him having a blog… today Aly gave me an idea that might work… Having him Guest Posting at urbanvox.net … That idea makes me happy… he already Vlogs with me a lot… so it won’t be too different will it?

I also seem to have rediscovered faith and that is something that is growing on me just like the little life that is growing in mummy’s belly… I still don’t know where it will take me… but I am more than happy to go where it goes.

We’re half way there… Time is flying and I can’t wait to meet our littlest one face to face… We’re half way there…

And I can’t stop smiling…