24 Jul

Tomorrow

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Tomorrow is the big day…

I’ve been through it twice before… but that doesn’t make me any less nervous…

Butterflies are running rampage in my belly and I simply can’t think about anything else, and the arrival of my third boy has been populating my mind for the past few days in special.

Not all thoughts were happy… I have cried once or twice because JT will be another of my sons that I won’t get to see growing on an every day basis. I want to be as present as I can… I need to be as present as I can, but in the end I realise that it’s not the same as being there every day. But I am happy I will finally be able to actually be part of JT’s life. His mum carried him for the past 9 months and I might have not had much say or chance to participate on the pregnancy, but tomorrow is a new day, and the beginning of a new walk. And in this new walk I have the chance to be part of his little life.

We’ve spoken better about the details of tomorrow… I am still not allowed to be there for the C-Sec as there might be complications and to be honest, I don’t want to add up to Hales’s stress at that moment, but I’ll be impatiently waiting at the hospital’s cafe for news coming from her mum or the midwifes. I will be impatiently waiting to know when I can go up to see my littlest monkey (I’m sure he will be one… all of his brothers are… hehehehe).

I am curious to see his little face… and hold his little hands on mine… And for that little moment I know I will forget the world out there, and forget every single doubt and pain I have. Every worry and every fear… gone.

Sure, new ones will come… they are bound to come… That’s what kids are for aren’t they? so we can worry about them?

Right now to me all that matters is that I will be able to hold him in my arms… That’s enough for me

So tomorrow… If you need me… I’ll be having coffee at the hospital’s cafe… and I’ll be waiting to be called up to see the littlest monkey.

And yeah… I’ll be tweeting…

Tomorrow!

21 Mar

The Reinvention of Me

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So… this is my last night of my last weekend as a 30 year old me and when I wake up it will be day one of the rest of my life…

Yeah… I know it sounds like common place, but believe it or not, it does have a special meaning to me… don’t ask me to explain… it has to do with significance of numbers and a few promises I made myself long ago… Some things I need to prove to myself… and a few other ones that I need to do before I run out of time.

Time… yeah… something so precious and something we don’t really give the right value to… Then when time comes we keep wondering where did time go… yeah… I know that feeling…

I am in a complete different place I had planned to be when I was asked 10 years ago: Where do you want to be in 1o years?

And you know what??? I am now old enough to see and admit that it doesn’t really matter that I am not who I wanted to be… It doesn’t matter that I am not who I wanted to be “when I grow up”… The song is right, and some of the most interesting people I know today still don’t wanna know what they want to be when they grow up…

I am not going to lament who I am not… I will enjoy life and celebrate who I am… and where I can still get to…

I want to run, play and mess around with the kiddos in my life…

I want to love and be loved… And I want cuddles…

I want to wake up in the morning and… Carpe Diem…

Suckage will be thrown around… but the simple things will be there too to make sure the balance is restored.

The reinvention of me started a while ago… now it goes into full steam!

I’ve started the introductory class “Me 101″ and am learning quite a lot about someone I thought I had lost so long ago…

ME! Myself and I!

So… you should totally stay tunned to this version 3.1 of Yuriware and find out what happens day by day as I reinvent myself again…

The basic challenges have started… I have moved out again and am truly living on my on since … well since a looong time…. I have joined our local swimming pool and plan to go lap it every day 1st thing in the morn… I will cycle more than drive… and I will eat healthily… I am even having the help of my gorgeous GH styling me into someone that doesn’t wear clothes that make him look like a 50yo… I am taking more photos and enjoying life more (and I intend todo this alone, with friends and family and as a couple… there HAS to be balance… and I will find it! I am also shaving my chest for charity…

I will be fit by the end of the year… well… fit enough…

I am defining the way I will walk towards… and whatever way that ends up being I will make sure it works… Not because I need to make it work (and yeah… I do need to make it work… specially as the generation that comes behind me depends on me… but I need to o it to prove to myself that I still got what it takes!) because I need to leave a legacy.

And I am doing all that before version 3.1 gets upgraded to 3.2

I am taking new chalenges too and I am open to suggestions… What will you have me do????

03 Feb

6 Years On (33/365)

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On the 2nd of February 2005 (6 years ago) I signed my forst ever Blog post as UrbanVox…

Back then blogging was a way for me to get everything out of my chest to avoid exploding… I didn’t worry about who was reading it or how many people did it… I didn’t worry about what I said or how… Didn’t care a bit if I was offending someone whit what ver I was unloading from my chest… Oh… I miss those days…

But then again… I’ve grown up quite a lot since then… And with me so has this blog achieved some level of maturity… What?? I’m a bloke… you don’t really expect me to be fully mature ever do you???

But you will find in the pages of this blog some of the most crucial moments of the past 6 years in my life… You will find almost the whole of my first son’s life, since he was 9 months old and you will find the whole of the life so far of my littlest one and yeah… the ones to come… You will find ups and downs… ends and new beginnings…

I haven’t really changed much really… I am still a dreamer… although I dream with my feet firm on the ground now… or at least closer to the ground…

My life hasn’t changed much either… I am starting over once again… This time I’m older and wiser tho… I try not to dwell on the past as much as I can… I truly believe that everything I want through had a purpose and would add up to things I live today and will live in the future… And hopefully not repeat the same mistakes of the past… Would I change any of it???

NOPE!!!

Oh… I’ll have some stories to tell my grandchildren… Or they can simply read them if they want it…

In 6 years blogging evolved a lot… and I’ve been trying to keep up with it… Vlogging Twitting, Social Networking… Words have been invented to describe the new tendencies in Social Media… Blogging isn’t what it used to be…

Last year we gave a huge step on shaping the blogosphere… and it was a great year for me too… I became a Daddy Blogger… one of the Top 10 in the country according to Cision… I’ve been nominated AND became a finalist as Most Innovative MADBlogger and came back with an award I didn’t even know there was a nomination for (Blogging Rockstar)…

This year further steps will be taken… I’m not prepared to tell exactly what those steps are, but keep an eye on @actionstations, @mad_bloggers and @urbanvox and you will get to know what those steps will be… And I promise it will be sooner than you imagine…

This year is all about giving back on all the good I’ve received… And maybe a bit more even…

I am SO VERY EXCITED about what’s to come I better stop talking before I let it slip…

So… Thanks for your readership… and I hope you keep coming back… There’s loads coming up at UrbanVox.net

And don’t forget to leave me comments… I luuuuurve Comments…

6 years… Wow… I feel like grampa blogger! hehehe

Zya!

24 Mar

Losing friends and alienating people

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Did you ever watch the movie How to Lose Friends and Alienate people? Well, I didn’t but if the title has to do anything with what the movie is about, I think they might have based the movie on me!

It wasn’t always like that tho… I used to be a people’s person. I used to have more acquaintances a than I could remember names and more friends than I could probably name.

Yes I did have a very closed circle of REAL friends, and some of them are still my friends today. Maybe not as close as they were before, but still when we speak it is as if time had not passed at all…

I think I miss having friend around me. I have somehow managed to alienate most of them for the past 2 years or so. I Haven’t spoken to some people that were like brothers or sisters to me for long long periods of time, I have shut most of them outside the loop of my life. Mind you, I have sort of alienated my brother and sister as well…

I think I’ve stopped believing in people… I actually think I’ve stopped believing in myself and as a consequence I began to think people stopped believing in me. I surprise myself every time someone comes to me for council… I surprise myself when people that are supposed to be leaders of a group of people come to me for counsel…

Last Saturday was my Birthday and it took no one showing up to the party for me to start thinking… Well not really no one… my family did go and Marcio came along too. But I had a list of about 80 people invited (Well… most I already knew they wouldn’t be able to come for one reason or other, like sime were going to be abroad on the day… ). The thing that really hit home was the fact that the people I was sure would come, didn’t come at all.

All and everyone had their reasons and I am not disputing that. I am actually not writing this post to incriminate any or them or make them guilty of anything…

This post is about me (kinda cliché uh… “It is not about you, is about me” … LOL! ).

There is a reason I feel alone most of the time… Intentionally or not, I’ve MADE MYSELF AN HERMITE!

At some point in time I cut off all relationships but my family and a few people I am still in contact with once here or there. And mind you, not even they know most of what’s going on in my life… how I feel… Hell know… God forbid they actually know some of the things that I feel… I have not come into terms with them… I won’t… I will keep on fighting.

The worst thing is that you have no idea how easy it is to drop off everyone’s radar.

I gotta change that… I used to have friends everywhere, that so far as a know considered me a good friend… Once upon a time I would die for my friends… Right now, deep inside I couldn’t care less…

And that hurts because is so unlike me. It goes against my nature…

I care… too much…

I need to get off at he next station so I’ll also end this post before I make a book out of it.

But I’ll leave a question: How on earth do I gat back to who I used to be??? Have a I forgotten who I am???

What would you do???

Zya…