02 Jun

Breathe… Laugh… Now Keep Going!!!

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I had a laugh at myself this morning… It was damn good to be honest!!!! I hadn’t done that in FAR TOO LONG!

I’ve been going through a lot for the past few months and have have had WAY too many ups and downs… And one doesn’t have to be a genius to know what’s going on in my life at this precise moment so I won’t comment on it… The fact is that I haven’t had a chance to stop and look at myself and laugh…

If you know me for some time the you know that I’m not the sort of guy that keeps mopping for too long about things that come and go. I tend to be logic about them… analise positive and negative aspects, compartmentalize make decisions and get on with life. That is me… The guy that always thought that feeling depressed and down was a waste of time… the one that always squeezed as much as possible from life because, well… we only live once…

Yeah… I haven’t done that much lately…

But today I looked at myself on the mirror and had a good laugh… And that felt GREAT!

And if it takes me one day at the dime to learn to do that again… well so be it!!

If you allow me to give you ONE tip about life is this one: Don’t take yourself too seriously… And for goodness sake… don’t take LIFE to seriously…

How about you?? when was the last time you took a good laugh at yourself?

Light up the darkness!

14 Mar

Tiny hands and tiny feet

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If you saw me today (well yesteday… as it is already past midnight) you would have noticed that I’ve been a bit distant… I had my mind miles away… Distant… etc etc… you get the point…

Yeah… it was one of those days…. One that started with so many great things to wait for… and I woke up smiling… Waiting for those great things to happen… I cleared up my bedroom.. opened windows to get some air in… joked about on the phone with hales… did some washing… Ad that’s when things went a bit wrong…

Tucked in the middle of the clothes I had just done I found a pair of tiny little socks… I froze where I stood…

I see my boys once a week and they come home with me twice a month… but for a dad that used to be there full time and be the first to see every single bit that developed in their tiny lives that will never be enough… Those tiny sox brought foeward to the memory everything I’ve been missing out on…

I usually try to keep them away from my thoughts for my own sanity… It hurts too much to know that they are achieving new milestones and I don’t get to see the new conquests until someone tells me.. or I see them for myself at the end of the week.

That goes in special with Lil’ One… I’ve missed his first steps without anything to hold on to last week and there are just so many first things that I know I will miss on… Seeing that little sock brought tears to my eyes…

I left everything piled up on top of my head and went to spend y day with Hales. She could see I wasn’t well from the moment she saw me… my excuse was tiredness… she told me to get back home and have a nap… I couldn’t bare to be alone at home just then… I kept myself busy with the cats, and taking J to the park so Hales could have some me time and a nap, then washed my car and kept myself busy… That helped keep the tears away…

Then I came home… and the socks were in top of the bed waiting for me… I miss his tiny feet and tiny hands…

I cried for a while…then folded the clothes… put everything away… stashed the pain in the back of my brain… and smiled to myself… Tomorrow is another day… Another week… 5 days til I have his litte hands in my hands… 5 Days til I see my Eldest’s cheeky toothless smile… And a week full of great things to wait for…

I am grateful because even though today might be all grey and rainy, the morning comes soon, and with morning comes new hope.

I am grateful for simple things… Simple pleasures that go a long way…

I am grateful for being surrounded by awesome people…

I am grateful because I can love… and because I am loved back…

I am grateful for little things that go a long way in making me cheerful again.

07 Mar

I am loving today! AKA I feel pretty, oh so pretty… lol :)

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Apart from the first day we opened the Meta Noia Cafe today mist be the day we had most moviment round here…

Does it have something to do with mother not being around giving orders and switching thing’s places and getting all desperated because this or that didn’t work as planed? Is it the fact that we’re getting more and more known round here (mind you, we still didn’t do any advertising per se… so horray!)??

We had a sunny day and with he sun out there my mood was also a lot brighter.

Hey even my 3G connection behaved a lot better! I didn’t get one disconnection all day! (yay) ah… BTW… BT will connect our internet hub on the 9th so we gonna go have proper internet here yayyyy!!!

I think I missed the sun… I might be tired of cloudy and gloomy days… No wonder the index of depressed people in the UK is so high….

I don’t know what it was so different today… but I like it! It inspires me… I feel a bit more like myself… I feel creative, and THAT is a hell of a huge difference from the past few weeks… months even… Not 100% yet, but it feels good to be me again!

Got a day off tomorrow… Whe do you do in one of those?? I kinda almost forgot what it was to have one… What do you do on those? lol

Anyways… customers at the door. and Vic is busy with mahjongg… so here I go… lol

Hey… come check the metanoia cafe!!!