Posts Tagged ‘journey’

23 Apr

For The Journey

Written by UrbanVox 0 Comments

“The road of life twists and turns and no two directions are ever the same. Yet our lessons come from the journey, not the destination.”
Don William Jr.

I’ve been in desperate need to find directions for the past few weeks… Living without a clear purpose or objective… or reason is no fun at all…

Yes, I know there is purpose for everything and I have more than enough reasons to live life, but I’ve been feeling lost… Life has turned upside down as I have been trying to be true to something I am not. I’ve been trying to reinvent myself for the past few months when all the time what I needed is finding myself again.

Does it make any sense to you???

So today I am embarking in a new journey. Not one to reinvent myself, but one to FIND myself. And I am marking the first step with literal journey. For the next 3 days I’ll be Taking a Journey to discover myself again… Just me, myself and I… I’ll be making a few stops on the way… Seeing a few VERY special people to me and have 3 stops planned… but the way there will be decided as I go… No routes, no agendas, no plans… I’m making this up as I go since I’ve decided to do that trip yesterday morning… :)

You can follow what I find and the log of the journey in my twitter feed as I plan to document The Journey n the blog for the months to come… and hopefully learn some lessons from the Journey…

And if you wanna take a this trip of self discovery with me then stay tuned to urbanvox.net as there are LOADS to come.

See you at the other side! ;-)

 

 

17 Mar

listening for the call

Written by UrbanVox 4 Comments

Did you ever listen for the night calling you to go outside???

I did… I’ve been hearing it for a while. 

I’ve been having these really weird cravings for my whole life… I have explored the night in NYC, in Sao Paulo, London, Portsmouth, Santiago de Chile, Santa Fe… well… the list goes on and on…

Night time just fascinates me… and I haven’t had time or the mood to explore it… to listen to it’s call for so long!

I used to lay down in the grass and look at the moon… to have long conversations with friends under the stars… I used to walk alone through the streets of Sao Paulo or New York and feel the smell of the late hours of night – or early hours of morning if you will – and feel the freedom that it used to give me… The emptiness of places that are so full of the human presence during the day…

I felt this call tonight… I had to open the bathroom window and breathe the night time air… look outside and take a peek at the iluminated and derk windows as people were asleep or going on through their business…

I had to look at the skyline and the fading red/yellow line of a sun that insisted to make itsel visible… even at 11pm… and it felt so great!!!

When the night calls you it calls you….

The same thing happens when the road calls you… I just love the journey… 

I remember travelling since I am a lil thing… I think I love more the journey than I enjoy arriving to my destination… It has always been like that.

I think I need to take the road again… I know I have roots now and I know I can’t just leave everything behind, but even if just for a week I need to get away… I ned to feel the thrill of the journey… I need to feel alive this way again…

When the night calls… when the road calls… you have to listen.

The only question is when will I  - be able to – do something about it??

zya!

07 Nov

Best Religion Blog???? WTF?!?

Written by UrbanVox 4 Comments

I’ve been nominated on Bloggers Choice Awards ’09 at the Best Religion Blog category!!!

My first though was: “WTF???? The last thing I ever blog about is religion (unless it has to do with my mother… but even then it is about our latest brawls…)!!”

At first I thought Vic had to be joking… and then she e-mailed me with the response as to why she made the nomination: “well you’re a pastor so I figure it covers religion too – that was the best job-related category I could come up with I think you should talk more about your faith on the blog – it would add another dimension to it.”

Well… before I regain my train of thought I need to clarify something… YES… I am an ordained minister and yes I do have the “Rev”. Title in front of my name in most documents since last year… and yes… I was the pastor of a failed attempt of a church in London (even though because of this failed attempt in London I mentor pastors in 3 different states in Brazil with a combined number of members of about 500 people, and because of that I am in the fast track to become a bishop…), BUT… I also happen to be considered by a hell of a lot of pastors of at least 6 denominations as heretic and as what we Christians call “lost”.

Why that??? Because I was always curious… and inquisitive… and I NEVER ever believed on something just because someone told me so… And let’s put it like that… I can prove for A+B that most things many pastors preach about are wrong just by pointing it on the same bible they claim to follow…

But I won’t get into the merit of that…

The fact is that I am on a journey to discover just WHO is YHWH (“I am” as the bible says in Exodus) and in that I am discovering more of who I AM!!

Other thing you need to understand is that I come from a family that is fundamentally Christian for the 3rd generation and I am part of a 2nd generation of ministers… My mother is a bishop… father is a worship minister, have cousins and uncles and aunts that are missionaries and pastors… And for them to learn of my “journey” and the things I have been finding on it has been a HUGE shock for most of them… not that most of them will ever consider leaving mainstream Christianity, and most of them will NEVER give years to reason…

Let’s say that at some point in my life I got tired to get lied to… and I am in search of the truth… And believe it or not… the truth can be found in many more places than you think possible!

I might be “lost”… but I am trying to find myself… and I think this is why I have been refusing to take my own church ahead and have decided just to mentor other people… in private… shared learning… And if I ever become head of a church again it will be to preach things I actually believe in for a change… In that I am VERY proud of at least 2 of my disciples who are pastors in Brazil.

I think being a Christian is a lot more than just going to church… Hell… Jesus  was the BIGGEST humanist I have ever heard of! and if we have HIM to aspire to be like… then we have TOO MUCH to change in ourselves.

I have made mistakes… and those mistakes came with a price… And one of the costs of it all was my wife losing her faith… she was part of what used to give me strength to be on this journey… Now I have been struggling to find strength of my own for it… but I’ll get there… and if she wants some day to embark on the journey with me it will be great! But I know that right now she has to fight her own battle on that… so I let it be… that’s a decision she has to make on her own…

I think I’ve spoken enough of religion for today (that considering that I believe religiosity to be the rut of all evil!!!)!!!

So I am adding a new category to this Blog!

it is called “For the Journey”! and on it I’ll report on my finds here and then… Not going to be something very constant as atm I have more in my hands than I can chew… and I have to confess that I am struggling even to get started in the mornings… so imagine to get involved in research again…  but I think I have a good idea of what I am looking for now. Never forgetting what they say… living and learning!

I am an open box (that one’s for you David!! ;) )!

zya!!!

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