Posts Tagged ‘Monday’

Did you ever watch the movie How to Lose Friends and Alienate people? Well, I didn’t but if the title has to do anything with what the movie is about, I think they might have based the movie on me!

It wasn’t always like that tho… I used to be a people’s person. I used to have more acquaintances a than I could remember names and more friends than I could probably name.

Yes I did have a very closed circle of REAL friends, and some of them are still my friends today. Maybe not as close as they were before, but still when we speak it is as if time had not passed at all…

I think I miss having friend around me. I have somehow managed to alienate most of them for the past 2 years or so. I Haven’t spoken to some people that were like brothers or sisters to me for long long periods of time, I have shut most of them outside the loop of my life. Mind you, I have sort of alienated my brother and sister as well…

I think I’ve stopped believing in people… I actually think I’ve stopped believing in myself and as a consequence I began to think people stopped believing in me. I surprise myself every time someone comes to me for council… I surprise myself when people that are supposed to be leaders of a group of people come to me for counsel… 

Last Saturday was my Birthday and it took no one showing up to the party for me to start thinking… Well not really no one… my family did go and Marcio came along too. But I had a list of about 80 people  invited (Well… most I already knew they wouldn’t be able to come for one reason or other, like sime were going to be abroad on the day… ). The thing that really hit home was the fact that the people I was sure would come, didn’t come at all.

All and everyone had their reasons and I am not disputing that. I am actually not writing this post to incriminate any or them or make them guilty of anything…

This post is about me (kinda cliché uh… “It is not about you, is about me” … LOL! ).

There is a reason I feel alone most of the time… Intentionally or not, I’ve MADE MYSELF AN HERMITE!

At some point in time I cut off all relationships but my family and a few people I am still in contact with once here or there. And mind you, not even they know most of what’s going on in my life… how I feel… Hell know… God forbid they actually know some of the things that I feel… I have not come into terms with them… I won’t… I will keep on fighting.

 The worst thing is that you have no idea how easy it is to drop off everyone’s radar.

I gotta change that… I used to have friends everywhere, that so far as a know considered  me a good friend… Once upon a time I would die for my friends… Right now, deep inside I couldn’t care less…

And that hurts because is so unlike me. It goes against my nature… 

I care… too much…

I need to get off at he next station so I’ll also end this post before I make a book out of it.

But I’ll leave a question: How on earth do I gat back to who I used to be??? Have a I forgotten who I am???

What would you do???

Zya…

I came downstairs this morning to find TB laying in the sofa in his PJs (his uniform was folded neatly beside him) watching Star Wars: The Return of the Jedi.

My 4 year old boy has become in the past months a hardcore fan of all star wars related things!!!

Should I be happy for that? HELL YEAH!! But instead I find a hole to pick!!! hehehe

Are you one of these people that like to pay attention in film details???

I am! I love to pick a hole! Discontinuity, changes between releases, easter eggs, the works!

But I am amazed at how I never noticed that one before and I am a big – not as hardcore as TB but still a big fan – of star wars!!

The images bellow are from the last scene of Star Wars: Return of the Jedi.

Damn!!! I know I am probably uh… a few years late… but how come I never noticed that before?

I knew there was something different there!!! It doesn’t sound fair on Sebastian Shaw to have him edited out like that… but hey…

Anyways… just thought I shoul share my discovery with the world!! LOL

And I probably sound like a big sad muppet now don’t I??? wellll!

Hey!! Today is my day off what I do with it is none of your business… That is… till I blog about it!  hehehehe

OK… gotta find something else to do… like hassling people to get my electricity at the cafe fixed!

zya!

Heya!

Maybe you  have noticed that I have been a bit absent lately… no posts, no videos, no pics… Loads of twits and a brand new gateway to all the bits @ urbanvox.net (a provisory one as the real new one will be all flashy when it is eventually done… ) yup… loads of new things going on but not a lot of my presence…

It comes with the new year I guess… all new!

All I can say right now is sorry for the absence!  It is all for a good cause!

So… the latest new thing for me are the new adventures of the DIY King (of fools): ME!

If you’ve been following my twits you might have noticed me rambling about builders giving me headaches and decoration and trips to IKEA, and spending money, and a new CWI HUB or even about a MetaNoia Cafe.

Well that’s what’s been keeping me busy and away(ish) from the internet . I never imagined that the details to open the venue of my dreams (just in a smaller scale) would be so  complicated. I can’t wait to have it up and running (but you will hear about it when and as it happens).

The builders have FINALLY moved out! That means that now I can FINALLY move in and get it ready to start receiving people! Ah… BTW… you are more than invited to come and visit us… we have wireless internet avaliable… and even a couple of computers mounted on the walls…

Which brings me to the DIY K(OF) situation: I am picky… and me being picky I didn’t like much what the builders did with the counter… for a start it was on the wrong place (after I told them exactly where I wanted it and HOW!)!!

So I decided to get back home, pick up my tools and MOVE IT MYSELF!

Next step is painting bits that need painting… getting the Image ID elements in and get the furniture/ computers/ studio equipment/ coffee shop stuff and then yayyyy we’re well away!

Too bad I didn’t take any pictures of the “Before”… but the “After” looks A LOT better! hehehe

Even better!!! I didn’t hammer a toe, of shred myself on nails or caused (or participated) on any accident yet!

Me is happy!!! lol!

wow… 2:22am… time to go to bed uh!

I’ll keep u posted!

nite nite!!!!!

zya!

(PS: Monday was OK all things considered! )

I’ll repost on that later on… let me just get the rest of the world off by back! hehehehe

zya!

Ok… If you know the lyrics of the Sugar Ray song it actually says every morning instead of Monday morning… But at this precise moment it is conveying my feelings about monday mornings so shut up babe don’t say a word!!! ;P

This post will be a quick one… I just want to make some points and if I am wrong, PLEASE correct me!!!

So my dissertation today is on the subject: mondays suck big time!

Ready to start? Let’s go!!!

To make my point I will list my points here, and if you find more positive facts that I can find negative then I will not hate Mondays for the rest of the month! Ah… Consider also that it is still 10am so a lot can happen still!!!

Let’s rock then!

- I fell asleep at 4am(ish)! Turned all night in bed, mind racing with all and everything, heater was off but the house was an oven feeling pain in all my limbs… Got woken up at 6:30am… Still feeling exhausted! I think I’m getting old!

- I’m getting old!!! And granpier by the day!!

- it is flippin cold!!!

- get Tb ready for school wasn’T as hard as usual but… Ok, scrap that one, after he had his shower he was actually quite good to deal with!

- left the car to get fixed again!!! I am afraid of how much it is going to cost to get it repaired!!!

- got clients that need to pay me but are giving me a run for my money! Why can’t they just do it!!! Latest excuse was: I “forgot” to feposit the money! Grrrrr!

- The council tax people didn’t take the money from the account AGAIN and now and now we’re in trouble again! What’s their problem I don’t know money was there to be taken and I had to set up this bloody dd 3 times already!!! Ah and I gotta sort that today!

- Hsbc people gave me the wrong statements! Can’t they just listen to me once????

- Got more stuff to do today than I could phisically manage… What’s new there tho…

- did I say that it is flipping cold today??

- my vanilla latte is now cold!!

- I am exhausted… And the week didn’t even begin yet…

- today is Monday… Need I say more???

Ok… I can’t think of anything else…

So please give mr a reason not to hate Mondays… Well at least for the rest of the month!!! Hehehe…

Ah… And don’t come with the you still have your health argument… I’m not sure that one will work very well as I have sintoms of severe stress… Last time I had it it landed me in a hospital for a week…

Me not likes hospitals!!!

WTF happened to me??? I used to be the mosy positive person I know… Right now… Well… I don’t seem able to see the light…

I hate that!!!!

Loads to do… Enough processtination… And my thumb is hurting…

Zya!